I have some regrets, like people I have met, decisions I have made, things I have done and didn’t do. But things will never be the same. I have learnt to be a better person.
I have learnt to always expect the worse from others. I know this may sound mean but its the truth. Of late, I have given a lot of people the benefit of a doubt but they’ve all failed. Nobody is perfect I know neither am I.
I was talking to a really good friend of mine and was saying how of late I have no feelings. I mean like I literally feel nothing. Its like I’m blank inside. If you see supernatural movies, even the villans have feelings. I was scared of this blankness. Its like darkness is beginning to fill me up. Then I as told that its normal to feel blank within and that it would pass.
I really can’t wait for it to pass soon enough. Its like I’m drowning within myself. Please come back, I really miss you and can’t wait to reunite with you ASAP..
Cheers.
Debbrah_
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Debbrah, its a passing phase which you have to help yourself out of it. and its only you that can do it for yourself. Look back at those things that once made smile and try doing them. It also be hormones in you reacting. Love you girl and get yourself together.
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Thanks a lot Brenda 😊😊
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It is well dear… I pray your old self returns safely to you 😉
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Thanks a lot.. I pray so too 🙏
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You are not a lone..
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Thanks angyjenks 😊😊
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It was as if you were writing from my head, the recent disappointment that I had is heartbreaking and expecting the worse from people is almost what I do now, nothing surprises me anymore and I learnt the hard way not to give people the benefit of doubt
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I used to like to give people the benefit if doubt but with what’s going on, I can’t. Someone was telling me to always except the worse from people and I don’t like it…
So now I’m done .. Like I feel nothing … 😑😑
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I pray that side of you returns to you to fill the void in you🙏
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Amen
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…. To be human is to be void of being Devine. Divinity is a perfect state where error is actually allowed. You are human, at least the last time I checked so am not surprised your moods and feeling can change. It is well, we are all overseeing things from the devine place, the end of the tunnel is bright. … Your., devine.
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Lol. I am human 😊😊…
Thanks a lot ☺☺
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I hope you find comfort until you reconnect with your old self. I am not sure what is going on in your life, so I won’t try and say that I know what you are going through, because we all feel things differently, but I do understand what you’re talking about when you say you feel nothing. After my mom died I sat on my couch and stared at the wall. The TV was on but I couldn’t tell you what I was watching. The whole month of January still feels like a blur. Once I got passed the crying and the emotional despair of losing my mother I lost myself. I was still here of course, but it was just a vessel walking around, going through the motions, I literally felt nothing, I didn’t smile or laugh or cry, I didn’t even eat. Nothing! Until one day, my husband said something that made me laugh, I laughed harder than I had in months, and then I cried and mourned once again. Slowly I got myself back. I will never be the person I truly was before my mom died, because a part of me died with her, but I do feel whole, for the first time in a long time. So I hope someone makes you laugh, and I hope you laugh until your stomach hurts and tears are running from your eyes, and I hope bit by bit, you find the person that you once were!
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Thanks so much Kristian… Am sorry for your loss 😑😑
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Deborah things will be okay! This happens to all of us and you’re just required to stay strong. You’ll be okay 🙂 I’m glad you shared your thoughts through your blog.
Take care.
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Debbrah*
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Thanks avathenerd ☺☺
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Hmmm, 😃
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😑😑
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I’ve felt ds way before: having no feelings i mean, it was just for sumbody tho. he really hurt me bad nd afta i forgave him, i realized i had no feelings whatsoever towards him, pple took it for hatred dat i still haven’t forgiven him but i really had, i just felt nothing towards him. tym healed me so my dear, dis shall pass. be strong.
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Thanks b ☺😊😊
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Whoever you are missing now and you want to come back to you, I too wish that person would..😇
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I’m missing the other me.. Thanks 😊😊
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I understood it..but just said..😂
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😊😊
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I miss my old self 😑😑
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Oh yeah..i wish it would come back to you..dont worry..😀😇 be happy
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I will 😉
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